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I realize that I haven’t updated for a few weeks. Things have been just as crazy as ever and I have no idea where to begin. I feel like I’ve been shoved into a rock and a hard place and I have no idea how to pull myself up this time. How can someone feel so lost and alone? The semester starts in a little over a week and I still haven’t gotten my books yet. I’ve been pricing them on the web for days and the cheapest thing I’ve found are rentals for $145. It’s still up there but it’s not as pricey as the college had previously quoted me ($1,600) nor is it as expensive as buying new/used books from their bookstore. The costs there was a little over $400.

Anyway I’ve temporarily disabled comments. It seems that the spammers have figured out a way around my CAPTCHA and have been spamming my inbox with comments about online research and what not. It also made me realize that I don’t even know what to do with my site anymore. I feel like scrapping the whole thing sometimes then other times I want to keep it but don’t possess any energy to work on it. But it IS the only means of self-expression I have so it’ll probably be around for a little while longer. At least until my domain expires and I’d really hate to get rid of it then because I am in love with the name. It’s not cheap buying a domain. Lol.

But yea, my life has taken on a completely new twist. I’m extremely confused and unprepared for the coils but I guess I have to try and navigate to the best of my abilities. All I have to say is that I didn’t realize people were so spiteful and hateful toward other people and how they will do anything to see you amount to nothing. Their joy in life is in your suffering. My question to those people are: “How can you possibly sleep at night?” But there is that saying that goes, “Let sleeping dogs lie because every dog has it’s day.” So I’m not going to do anything anymore. The situation is beyond my control and I’m tired of fighting with people who don’t know a thing about me and choose to assume rather than ask. It’s always going to be their way or the highway so why even waste your breath explaining things to people who are ‘hearing’ you but not ‘listening’. I’m definitely one of those people who stands by the belief that what goes around comes around. But I’m definitely going through a rough patch in my life. And it sucks. But I’ll be ok.

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- Crushed Infinity
- Epic Love Story
- Holiday From Real
- Lep’s Lair
- Monstress
- Mulder-Scully
- Seeing Red

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The crazy month of July began on the 1^st and has not ended yet! I am going to catalog everything that has happened to me so far this month. It’s been an extremely hectic month for me which is why I haven’t updated nearly as much as I’d love to. But I really appreciate all of the comments, emails, tags and support from all of you guys. You’re wonderful!

The 1^st. So on the 1^st of July I scheduled a hair appointment that took practically six hours to complete. I wasn’t getting it straightened. Haha. I was actually getting kinky twists put into my hair because of the summer season not realizing “oh snap” is the first, I have to pay my rent. Yikes. Good thing I was on summer break because it allowed me to make a mad dash to the bank to get a money order for my rent.

The 6^th. I ended up going to the community college of my choice to file paperwork for an EOP&S which is a book voucher that pays for the books you need for your classes. Anyway after calling the school several times to be sure I wasn’t getting the run-around, I get the A-OK to come to the campus and file the paperwork. Only when I get there they don’t have the paperwork prepared for the Fall semester until mid August! So I wasted my time going up there when they could have told me that over the phone. Turns out…all the employees thought I said I wanted the EOPS paperwork for the Summer semester. How does Fall sound like Summer? Anyone?

The 9^th. Ah yes, my birthday. On my birthday I was actually in school which was weird because I’m usually not in school during my birthday because I have a summer birthday. This is what I get for attending a year-round institute. Anyway I had been running around doing college stuff during the week that I completely forgot I had an Airline Carrier Codes test that day that I hadn’t really studied for. I asked my instructor if I could have just one more extra day because the information didn’t seem to be sticking. I did study a little bit but not as much as I wanted to due to my college deadlines with registration and what not. Anyway she got an attitude with me and said, “You know what Ariel, everyone else had to study for the same test you obviously did not study for. You are not going to cut it in college missy!” Oh yeah, did I mention it was my birthday? I failed the test miserably. Scored the lowest I had ever scored on a test in my entire life. I think this made the instructor happy because she hates my guts for some reason. I recently applied for a part-time position at a shoe store and when I asked if I could use resume paper she coolly replies, “Do you really think you should use the “good” resume paper on a part-time position? It would be such a waste.” A job is a job damnit! The day did however progress and I was cheered up by my friends—received a few bucks, hugs and kisses from my loved ones. Overall, the damnedest birthday ever.

The 10^th. I had dinner at Applebees with my mom and sister. My mom slipped off and told the hostess it was my birthday and the entire crew sang Happy Birthday to me complete with a strawberry short cake! My out-of-state relatives called me to wish me well and happy birthday too! Oh and I ordered a pair of heels as a gift to myself. Overall, good day.

The 16^th. For those of you guys who have been following along since last year may know what this important day was. My court date for the “suppose” traffic violation in a photo enforced intersection that I got last year during Christmas season. I was charged on count one for failure to stop at a red light. And I was asked to plead. Not guilty of course! I was completely within my rights. I was already in the intersection when the light turned red! What am I supposed to do, stop in the intersection? But before I get to the juicy parts…let me tell you, I was almost attacked by a pack of angry court-bound drivers. I went to court at 8am and was released a little bit after 11am. Anyway I had to listen to countless cases before they got to mine which took all of 10 minutes to look over. One woman got ticketed for driving too slow in a school zone. I didn’t know that was possible!

Anyway, before it was 8am there was a huge line. I was kinda depressed I would have to wait a long time before I was heard. I walked up to the first approachable person I saw which was an elderly lady and I began to ask her questions about the line to make sure it was the right one I was supposed to be in and what time the court opened. She said they didn’t open til 9 which shocked me because my appointment was for 8:15am. Anyway these two women a few people down start talking loudly where I could obviously hear and said obnoxious things like: “Doesn’t this b*tch see this line here? Why the f*ck is this cutting in front of this line? I’ve been standing her forever and I am not about to lose my spot to her!” and “Look at her hair and clothes, who is she trying to impress?” Umm the judge? Hello! I don’t want to pay someone $500 dollars for a supposed traffic violation! I don’t even have book money for college! I had on slacks and a blouse, come on! At least appear that you give a damn. I was unfortunately the only one dressed. Lol. I walked to the end of the line, receiving crazy stares from the two women.

Anyway a court receptionist…(I did not know they had these) came out with an A-K list and started ticking off the names of people to appear in court. A lot of people didn’t appear. Anyway my last name is four letters before the K. The two women’s last names were in the T’s so you can imagine how pissed off they were that they had been waiting there longer and that I had been called before them. I didn’t tell the judge to call everyone alphabetically. As we were seated one of the women kicked my chair in the back and I nearly fell over! I don’t understand why people are so goddamn mean. I’m not a confrontational person but I will kick someone’s ass if that meant defending myself and what I thought was right. I let that go however because one) it was a freaking courthouse! I’m trying to evade trouble, not get into it! And two) I’m a firm believer in what goes around, comes around. Crazy adults! I pleaded not guilty and a trial was set for end of August. Let’s just hope I don’t have to pay a dime. I know CA is broke but please, I need all the money I can get for school.

The 20^th. I had a job interview with a shoe store in my area. The interview was scheduled at 2:30 but it didn’t actually get underway until around 3:45 because the manager felt her crew “needed” her on the floor. There were TEN other employees walking about the store who were working. Don’t schedule an interview with someone at that time if it is inconvenient for you. Anyway I sucked badly because I was so tired from everything. She asked me how I would perform 4 tasks she assigned to me at the same time. I mean…is that a trick question? It’s completely impossible to perform 4 tasks simultaneously. Anyway I don’t think she’s going to call me. This was also the day my instructor told me this position or me weren’t worth the waste of “good” resume paper.

The 21^st. My exit date for vocational school is set for the end of next month! I’m really disappointed with this because I wanted to have some free time, at least a week, before being thrown back into school again. Vocational school isn’t allowing me breathing time after all the BS I’ve put up with simply due to the fact that I’m not leaving with a J-O-B instead I’m trying to go to college. Since the college date is set, I’m screwed. I get two days, Saturday and Sunday before being thrown back into more school.

The 24^th. I received a call from a marketing company about an interview set for Monday. I really hope it goes well because I need a job right now. The pay is amazing and the hours are flexible. Some of you may remember me working at a office supplies chain but…I had to quit my job at the office supplies store two months ago and I’ve been really struggling to stay afloat. If it were my choice I would still have my job.

And today, I’m typing a blog about the craziness of the past month! I hope I haven’t left anything out. The month is still young! And this blog is probably the biggest one I had ever posted on the site! Also the craziest! Haha.

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Hello you guys! I realize I haven’t updated in a little over two weeks. I’ve been running around like a crazy person for the last few weeks. I finally went to take my assessment test for college over a week ago and I was nervous and panicky that I didn’t exactly score the way I wanted to but it’s a minor set back. I have to take more classes to get to the degree applicable classes. I’m very excited. I’m leaving vocational school in a few months and going off to college in the Fall. I really haven’t had the time I’ve wanted to update! Anyway its my birthday tomorrow the 9^th so I won’t be on again probably til Monday. I have ALOT of stuff happening right now and it’s really big for one person! I will post Monday though!

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